~ Hi:) Im Shannon, Im 16 and I live in Maryland. I do Folllow for follow, details in the faq. This is also an advice blog so if you need to talk I am here!
i realize i havent made a confession in a while,( ive actually lost count!)
let alone get on tumblr more than once a week, which is odd.
but i have a big confession for today, ive realized a lot in the past 3 or so months. but this is the main point:
I mentally prepare myself for every possible outcome in any situation. I mentally rip apart an event that is coming up. Lets say its a date, i imagine it going badly, i imagine it going well. I imagine it going bad and prepare to get hurt cause it could happen. I think about what I’d say or do. I dont know if this is weird or not. I do it all the time. And Ive also realized why I do this and its because Im afraid of emotional surprises. So like 2 or three weeks ago when me and my boyfriend broke up, I was okay. I wasnt crying my eyes out, bawling the next day like some of my friends do. Cause throughout the whole relationship I was emotionally preparing myself for heartbreak. Warning myself not to get too attached. It not like I knew that we were going to break up, I wanted it to last, things were going well. I just dont want to get hurt and I have to think of what could happen, making a mental pros and cons list constantly. Is this bad?
Please tell me If Im not the only one who does this. Im not sure what to do.
Ugh i think too much
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ooOoh i love yours too!